Fade Into You: Chapter 11

"Jasper, seriously! I like the way my shit is organized dude. They don't need organization. I don't need to know where my movies are at."

"Well, if you had them organized by genre, and then alphabetically within each said genre, then…"

It turned out I'd become a master at tuning out Jasper when he began to carry on. I thank Emmett for my development of that little skill. While the morons were duking it out over the organizational state of Emmett's DVD collection, I looked around the room and took it all in.

A month ago Bella, who currently sat snugly in my lap, our hands intertwined, had agreed to be my girlfriend. This led to the inevitable meeting of the other two couplings in the room. Who knew that a territorial OCD anal retentive spaz would be exactly perfect for an overgrown woman child in the form of my younger sister.

They were inseparable. Sometimes it bordered on disgusting. They evened each other out to this point of almost normalcy in the both of them. That was saying a lot, considering that neither of them were remotely close to being anywhere near sane. I loved them both now, though. Jasper had become a fixture in my life, and he had this way of easing minds and calming all of us down. I understood how he and Bella were such good friends.

Rose and Emmett were a whole other story. Volatile as shit those two were, but meant for each other nonetheless. It took them less time to hit the sack than it did for Alice and Jasper, and trust me that was something I needed brain bleach for. Hearing about your little sisters sex life was not on the top of my list. Damn her and her free thinking.

It was unavoidable that the shrew would end up with the douche. I remembered thinking the first time she ever threatened my life that they would be perfect for each other. The threats hadn't ended there, by the way. No, they had definitely escalated. Once she became aware of our um, status, shit hit the proverbial fan. It was a shit show of epically monster proportions and one I'd like to avoid ever thinking about again, but sadly it was seared into my brain like a cattle brand.

Rosalie and I had actually sat down and had quite the chat. She wanted to know why I needed so badly into Bella's life, and I wanted to know why she was such a life sucking bitch. Seemed like a fair trade to me. It really was an insightful little conversation as it made me wish I could run down a few grade schoolers.

It turned out that Rosalie was Bella and Jaspers protector of sorts from a pretty early age. Bella had told me she was home schooled, but never mentioned what had come before that. She had been in the public school system. She and Jasper were good friends due to the fact that they were both different from the other kids.

Jaspers differences were obvious. I mean, he had probably tried rearranging classrooms and lining up crayons or something. By lining up crayons I mean by color family and then by color, and then by name within the…oh hell, I even confused myself trying to think out his logic.

Bella's differences were something else altogether. Bella was smart, smarter than she had ever let on. She could do equations in her head when she was eight years old and she could read full sentences out of newspaper articles by the time she was in the first grade. It turned out, though, that being book smart is very different from being street savvy.

Bella always did what she was told. She never strayed from that. So when she was ten years old, a boy had told her that she was fat like a pig and should just stop eating altogether. So she did. She had turned eleven before anyone figured out what was happening with her. She was quiet and shy, and also naturally small, so it took quite some time to notice the change in appearance and attitude, seeing as the attitude shift was so small.

Jasper had long since been pulled out of school to be homeschooled and Bella's parents decided to do the same for her. The two families were good friends, and decided to form a support group of sorts. That support group turned into a center for homeschooled children with problems, the very same center that they had mentioned in our very first meeting. The center was created because of them, and they stayed faithful to it, even Rosalie. It was very useful to her brother.

I wanted to find this now grown child and make him wish he had never existed. I never told Bella that Rosalie had told me everything. It would be an invasion of her privacy, and I didn't want to make her feel self conscious.

"God, can we just pick something to watch already? This is ridiculous." The cold hearted bitch that I now thought of as an over protective sibling rather than a bitch with no soul broke me out of my musings.

"Well, if OCDsper here would quit messing with them, we could."

"Awwww babe, just pick one!" Alice danced her way over to where the boys were crouched in front of Emmett's massive collection shooing them out of the way. She closed her eyes, spun around and chose the first thing she laid her hand on. It was classic Alice and I could already feel Em getting ready to bust a nut. It was even funnier when I glanced at the case and noticed that she'd randomly chosen 'The Sound of Music'.

Jasper abandoned his meticulous organization and came to her side. Alice giggled something in his ear and he smiled sheepishly. It was sweet. All she wanted was for everyone to get along and for the most part we really did.

"Al, you know I hate it when we do that. Remember that time we had family movie night and you did that and we ended up watching 'The Sound of Music'? Seriously, that movie gives me the creeps. It's like watching 'Snow White and the Seven Dwarves' on a hillside."

And that was why I laughed my ass off when I saw what Alice had inadvertently picked.

"Oh you big baby. What did ya get there Al?" Rose asked…and then burst into laughter.

"What's going on? I don't get it." Bella whispered in my ear with a shift on my lap and a groan from my self. I assumed she hadn't seen the case. I smiled down at her and told her to just watch. She would never forget this moment.

Bella was something else that had changed so much in the last month. It was as if she could read my mind. I used to want to save her, actually felt the need to do so. The second she agreed to be my girlfriend, I really wanted her to see herself the way I did, pretty and confident and loving. She became all of those things almost instantly. When I would compliment her, she would accept it. When I kissed her, she would give back what I had given her. We really hadn't moved into the realm of sexual anything yet, and that was fine. She began eating properly and it was evident.

"Just watch baby. This is going to be something else." I whispered close to her ear as I kissed her neck and moved my hands underneath her shirt to feel the skin of her stomach and sides. It had become one of my favorite pastimes, feeling Bella's constantly filling out flesh with my hands. I liked the changes in her. She would talk to people now, even look them in the eye, and we touched and kissed in public. Not over the top or anything, but for my pretty girl it was massive steps in a different direction.

Alice had a questioning look on her face as even she hadn't looked down to see what was in her hand, being too wrapped up in Jasper. Rose quickly grabbed it from her and turned her back on the entire room. In a comical act, she stuffed the movie into the DVD player and then swiped a dozen movies off the shelf and onto the floor, mixing the case that she held in her hand in with the rest.

"Okay. I'm intrigued." Bella whispered back, her breath washing over the shell of my ear and sending a shiver down my spine. It was so hard to stay focused on everything going on around me when I was completely surrounded in her and her happiness.

"What the fuck was that for Rosie? What are we watching?" Emmett yelled out looking thoroughly confused, but then again, that was normal for him I guess.

"Press play babe. Come sit." Rose sat on the couch and patted the spot next to her with a devious smile playing across her model features.

Emmett huffed out a few curses, grabbed the remote and everyone settled in with their respective significant other. He pressed play and it went through its usual previews and such before landing on the disc menu. Apparently, he had never really lost the idea that the Von Trapp's were actually the Seven Dwarves in disguise because as soon as the menu screen came up, he stood up and looked at me with fear in his eyes. I think he was actually terrified of them. How on earth that was a possibility I would never understand.

"Oh fuck no! Just no! Alice…seriously! We are never playing that game ever again."

Rose laughed and told him to calm down. It was just a joke. Alice looked sincerely apologetic and Jasper was eyeing the mess of movies on the floor. I could tell he was really restraining himself from picking them all up to the point where he was clutching Alice's thigh like she was a life preserver keeping him in that one spot. He really had been trying so hard around us. I told him once that he didn't have to, but he insisted that he wanted to.

"Seriously, that shit ain't right. I keep expecting some ugly ass witch to pop out of nowhere and give the damn nun an apple or something. It's all child slavery and shit."

"Child slavery, Em? Really?"

It was getting late, and I heard Bella's giggle at my side and then a small sigh in my ear. Everything else faded into the background then, and I wanted to pretend they didn't exist. They and their comedy of errors would have to wait. I knew that sigh.

"You tired?"

She nodded, closing her eyes and settling her head on my chest right above the heart that was hers. I brought my hand up and cradled it there, wanting her to feel the way she made my heart beat.

"Want to take off for the night?"

"Yea, I don't think were going to be watching a movie tonight anyways." She nodded towards the scene in front of us and I bit back a laugh. Jasper was sitting on the floor frantically trying to clean up to keep his mind at ease. Rosalie had started the movie and was holding the remote away from Emmett. Alice was sitting there enjoying the movie while quietly giving Jasper her bedroom eyes. Eww. No thanks.

"Hey!" I called out, standing as I did. "Ladies and douches, Bella and I are out for the night. Enjoy your…movie" I snorted as I held my hand out for her to take. She took it and went to say her goodbyes.

Rose ran over to me, still playing keep away from Emmett and leaned up to whisper something to me.

"Thank you for making her happy. I almost don't even feel like hitting you right now."

She kissed me on the cheek and I laughed as she ran away, Emmett tackling her to the ground in the process. Bella sidestepped there tangled mass on the floor until she made it back to my side. She and Alice had become good friends. I was glad. She needed that in her life. Al glanced up giving us both a knowing look, followed by a wink. Pesky little one, she was.

"Bye guys! We'll see you all tomorrow," Bella called out. "Alice, I'll call you in the morning okay?"

"Okay. Have fun kids…but not too much! "Alice added with a laugh.

Seeing everyone so happy made me happy.

I had asked Alice about everyone's phone calls and such. She only shrugged and said they were worried. I asked what they had to be worried about, and she told me that they just loved me and Bella too now. We were a unit that they wanted to guard, and just to let them be, so I did.

Making our way out to the Volvo, I pulled Bella in to my side and kissed her hair inhaling in the same movement.

"Where to, Madam?"

"I want to snuggle tonight. I need to be with you." She said shyly as she looked at me through those pretty lashes of hers.

We'd spent a few nights together just simply holing on to one another. She always initiated it, and where we stayed was up to her. I loved it when she came to my place, because just like that first time I met her, seeing her in my clothes made me kind of weak. My t-shirts and rolled up sweat were made for her I'd decided.

"Your place or mine?"

"Yours."

"I love you, you know." I told her.

"I know." She simply said before I helped her in and we were off.

We were a tangled mess, slick and sweaty. Clothes scattered everywhere, our limbs entangled within each others. Our breath mingling together in heated pants and whispers.

"I love what you do to me." I told her between kisses and touches.

"Make me yours, Edward. Please."

I couldn't resist her, and I couldn't stand to hear her beg. It made something inside of me snap. I wanted everything for her.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure."

I'm sure my answering smile blinded her as I once again descended upon her attaching my mouth to hers and letting my right hand wander south as my left slowly caressed her beautiful peaks. Upon further inspection in her softest area, I found her to be more than ready with a breathy moan escaping through her beautiful lips as I touched her there.

"Baby, this might hurt." I told her looking her deep in the eyes and she nodded. I readied her with my fingers, stretching her as much as I could and then removed them. Settling between her legs, I took each of her hands in mine, and leaned back to view her splayed out before me. God my girl was pretty.

"You're so pretty, you know that?" I Leaned down kissed her and slowly moved inside.

Just then, the door creaked open and closed with a soft click. I was so lost in Bella, watching her emotions, the pain, the love, the pleasure, that I couldn't be bothered to even give a shit. I kissed her hard and steadied myself once I was inside.

"You good baby?"

"Yes." Her eyes conveyed the truth, so I started to move gently inside of her, learning what made her tick.

"Do you think he can hear us yet?"

Um, hello Aunt Esme and also what the fuck?

"I don't know,"

And Carlisle.

I was so lost in Bella that I couldn't even call out to them, tell them to get the fuck out, or even have the decency to be horrified that they were there. Bella wasn't speaking. Had she heard them? I looked to her to see her with her eyes closed, mouth slightly open and writhing beneath me. No, she hadn't heard. So awkward. What the hell was I supposed to do here?

"We miss you."

Bella began to climax. I was nearing it with her and finding it hard to hold on. She was whispering nonsensical nothings and I was smothering her body in my own. All the while, my aunt and uncle were just there. Just hanging out, watching us get our freak on, first time for both of us…so awkward. Was I supposed to say something?

"I love you."

"I know"

"You're doing that all wrong. That's not where you put it. Jesus. Can no one do anything right around here?" Carlisle shouted as we both slipped into oblivion.

She gasped and moved and clutched to my fingers and I clumsily erupted inside of her. Finally, the sounds around me came back to me as I began to slump down peppering my baby girls face with kisses and showing her all the love I had for her.

"Carlisle and Esme saw that."

"I know"

"Oh for the love of God, move. I'll do it myself" Carlisle yelled.

My eyes popped open and I was covered in a sheen of sweat. My breaths were coming fast and hard and I needed to make my heartbeat slow down. Looking around, I was in my own room, aunt and uncle nowhere in sight. To my right with her head on my chest and snuggled into my clothes under the covers was my Bella.

A dream. That shit had been a dream. One that had been both bliss and a nightmare rolled into one. I held Bella closer to me and closed my eyes.

"I love you," I whispered to her, "More than my own life."

She answered me with a shifting of her body draping an arm over my bare torso. I really did. These nights with her were an undoing for me in so many ways. I wanted more, but knew that neither of us were ready for that. We'd get there in our own time.

And definitely NOT with my aunt and uncle watching…just sayin'.